2009 was a tough year for me. I whined a lot. Too much. I know everyone has hardships, bigger fish to fry, and my problems may not seem like problems to some. But in my head there was a lot of stuff going on. I was a bit of a newlywed, changed jobs, and my perspective on a lot of things. I found out I was the biggest hypocrite I'd ever met. It was a learning year. To those who know me, maybe I haven't changed, but inside things are a little more organized and less panicked. Although still paranoid...that may never change.
But I'm feeling hopeful.
The other day I sat with some girlfriends at happy hour and we had a good talk about the pressures we place on each other. Whether it's a learned behavior, instinct, or the media I can't really say. We talked about how other people's goals, relationships, and how their normal will never be our own normal. Yet we judge, and compare. The grass is always greener. Why not just be happy for them, and happy for ourselves? It's something I have to remind myself often. Quit worrying so much about what others lives, and enjoy your own.
When I think about the future now, things are much more clear and relaxed. Forget time lines for kids and when my dogs will finally calm down. I'm learning to enjoy the craziness that comes with them, and if my eggs get old, I'll adopt. And although I'm still worried about global warming and the polar bears, my very green coworker said in the U.S. we throw away half our food. Which means we can feed all those new babies that are coming into the world. So go ahead and have number 20 Duggars, I won't judge.
It's all about perspective and what you make of it. I was inspired by this post on A Practical Wedding to change the way I think about things. Especially everything Meg from A Practical Wedding has said about what it means to be someones Husband, Wife or Partner. It's different for everyone. So listen to opinions. I love opinions. But keep perspective. It won't be the same for you. Nothing will.
But I feel hopeful. Bring it 2010.
Thank you to everyone who has tuned in and stuck with me on my little blogging venture. I know its a random one, but I enjoy having a place to post some pictures and things I find amusing. Possibly things that only I find amusing ;)
Hope you have a happy and safe New Year!
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